tokyo-express

2004-12-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

that us at peng peng jie jie / zann's wedding. she looks so different le..hahaha mroe pictures to come..

2004-12-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went for spinnovex interview. My partner and I waiting for around 4 hrs before getting interviewed. stupid lecturer. He kept going on and on about how simple my circuit was and why wanna make something so complex when it's actually so straight forward. What made me mad was when he said. i wanan see more stuffs and components so it looks more complex..blah blah blah.. my chances are really slim now. I feel relive that i'm almost done with my FYP but on the other hand vexed not getting selected.

today i went to pay my respects to my grandfather before going off to bugis to shop with my sisters and find a solution for my LAN. nothing much i wanna say whe ni type i feel it so i rahter not.

I cant img me stop schooling. it seems sch has been part of me for the most part of my life. during the holidays i lost my motivation and aim. 3 cheers to school reopen..hoho..

btw, i shall keep my happy memories buried here while it's good and move on. Now that i've move my place i feel it's also time for a change in blog address. Actually my 'new' blog address isn;t new it's just that i created it quite long ago with the intention of moving but kinda scrapped
it. Maybe this can serve as a time capsule for me. 1 year of blog entries that will stay online forever and when it's gone. hopefully all my sad memories for the year will be gone with it too..

moving to -> http://t34rs.blogspot.com

2004-12-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

Why would i lie to you by francesca clementis is a beautiful book. Alot of love triangles and i really like the twist at the ending. hard to find Romance novels like that. dunno why for light reading, i prefer romance novels.

Maybe heading for a change of blog address soon. maybe not. i dunno. i find myself clueless of my aims my goals and what i wanna achieve,. My goals seem to be wittering bit by bit. it's liek my soul being eaten slowly. what's this feeling? loneliness? i dunno. the start of school next week is much welcomed, giving me the space to take my mind off my thoughts and concentrate on my studies.

sweet misery..

2004-12-08T15:17:00.000+08:00

haven blog in a really long time. Been busy packing cleaning and moving into my new house. So many things have come and go and school re-opens next week. Leo members outing was good. actually it was alot better then expected. My skin is still peeling. sun burned.

Moved to my new place. When i was taking the bus home, i went past my old place. there was such a strong feeling. those which makes your heart feel as if somemore squeeze it and make you cry. well, i guess i'm very much attached to my old place. 20 years there. Jus manage to get my LAN up and My SCV back up. but this place is soo dark after 9pm and so remote. which means no more late nites home. haha.. will continue my blog ltr.. need to catch with lost time online now.

beautiful sunset at siloso beach

hulks will always be hulks..

'babes' posing for leo club 2005 calendar..wahhaha

2004-11-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

together we can make a better tomorrow

spent my whole day at my new place supervising the painting and the renovation. got home all dusty and sweaty. gosh, it'll be so quick.. i'll be moving in on 6th dec. Back to sch tomorrow for FYP. Hopes it all goes well cus we'll be adding some add-on. Early night for me tonite i guess.

2004-11-28T03:33:00.000+08:00

Suprise birthday party at Alicia's house.. it was top secret. haha.. anyway, it' was really fun. we bought her a pair of socks(andy's idea), cookie(mine idea) & earings(joanna idea). I got my sister to help me with the birthday card :) she's a gd artist wor..

anyway, i can;t believe Alicia didn even suspect..haha we stayed till pretty late and i missed my last train, i was kinda frighten cus i didn know wad bus to take. so i jus loan some money from andy just in case.keke.. Ran so fast around the interchange looking for a bus to anywhere near my place.. in the end i took 189 i think..hah to woodlands. it was a 1 hr journey. Afterwhich, i took a cab home.

While waiting for Alicia, we made friend with some of her sec sch friends. it's pretty easy to mix ard prob because they are also equally friendly :)

I guess the whole day most interesting event would be her birthday oarty.. haha oooh ya, Alicia so happy till cry.. so touching rite.. anyway, i got smth else to blog abt yesterday.. ahha haven upload the blog from my Palm top. might be going to sitex tmr with vicky, depends whether he has got meeting or not *cross fingers* even so i need $$ from daddy..haha..

have a fun and safe journey Alicia and Andy.. dun forget my presents in advance for X'mas k.. :p

A beautiful Jeon with an equally beautiful Olympus camera.

this used to be my playground

2004-11-25T20:32:00.000+08:00

FYP today was a failure but with some success compared to the past few weeks. manage to get the encoder logic to work but my Tx/Rx is not working.. prob try tmr. Mr Ong is on holiday till school re-opens and it means we'll be left all alone to do this by 8 Dec. Not like he helped in anyway b4 but another hand is always better.

got my results le. scored 3As, 1B and 1C+. can't believe for OM i got C+.. well my target was no C and yes i failed again to meet my target. nvm there is still the last term left.. so i guess it's cheong all the way. dinner is almost ready.

i need money

2004-11-14T13:19:00.000+08:00

Out the whole day yesterday from toa payoh to Plaza sg to catch the Sg Idols then to kallang for some CHC carnival invited by one of my friend. Out of my dream go-go land? Maybe i will also today. depends. will be going to my uncle Ali bla bla's place for Hari Raya. hope to see everybody again and not forgetting the good food :) Hopeful no one is gonna bitch about results. lolz

Watched The Day After Tomorrow. It's such a nice movie. Totally amazing and stunning how we are treating my environment and how nature fights back. Totally beautiful. I wished the movie would focus more on the world then America itself. Nevertheless we should be reminded that what you have today can be lost tomorrow.

Secret Garden

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mind
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away

2004-11-12T02:04:00.000+08:00

couldnt sleep.. so i thought i might as swell pop up and write smth and read some blogs. spend my day reading the news from all around the world and also did some discussion on my final year project regarding encoders/decoders. hopes it works.. Any more problems from my project i think i'll break.. thanks momo for the "cheer" lol..

does time makes it all sweeter or bitter?

2004-11-11T02:51:00.000+08:00

sorry abt tonite. Just got home after some supper and a walk around my neighbourhood. been doing alot of thinking recently and there are just too many things to process, breakdown and understand. First of all is my FYP well i noe i've been nagging and complaining about this. Just hope i can get some decent hel from the lecturers. My life is in one big piece of shit yes it really is..but is this it oris it just da begaining.

Why did i not see it coming but it's too late now. things will never be the same.. maybe in awhile. sometimes just sometimes.

My classmates just sms that i missed out on the babes @ zouk.heck they are all having fun at Zouk right now. sorry but i dun club so why am i jealous? lol isn't clubbing about drinking, dancing and picking up gals? is this kind of life interesting meh? i dunno. I dun like the smoking thingy thy have there. Ah well, we'll see gd nite and to vicnes happy deparvali

To Jin Xian,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY.. sorry to wish you happy birthday on such a sad blog entry. we have known each other since like forever. A young lil gal has transformed into a sawn :P may all your wishes come through and say hi to ur family for me esp ur brother (Ah peh Han jun yuan).muahahaha...i haven met them in a while.. oh well you dun read my blog..lol but your bro does. nevertheless you are 19 liao and yeah we had fun at Linkin Park huh!! have fun on ur birthday :)

2004-11-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

life's a bitch when you are doing final year project with only one other member and a screwed up lecturer. no help from him except his ****ing mouth. hopefully i can get this done and over by Dec before i have more white hairs..

life doing final year project is worst then meeting a bitch...

2004-11-08T11:43:00.000+08:00

welcome to my world where everything is static. heck even my computer ip is static..lol so much for the holidays. will start with my FYP on wednesday and meanwhile, i mught jsu go have some fun. downloaded alot movies of late and watching them at the rate of 2 per day :P

don you agree, before teh exams everyone seems so willing to get it over and done. they have so many plans, hopes and wild thoughts. After the last paper. they go out have fun till the drawn breaks and then sleep late till the next afternoon. then the next day when they wake up they start calling all their friends and hit down town. before having BBQ/Steamboat dinner at marine south. isn't that the typical routine?

Well, mine's no better. it's like an eye glued to the big screen unable to get a life. a real one and not a reel one. Wishes and hopes i have so much. plans i cant describe, but my life has stoped. Tell me what is the difference between inspiration and experation... life's a bitch i shall agree with tat.. i believe in karma do you?

music genre is Rap for the week alrite... i'm downloading the show Band Of Brothers and heck it's 7 G no kidding man...that's really alot of shit... if Singnet comes knocking on my door for the crazy usage of bandwidth, i can go get a coffin le.. lol

wonder what will tomorrow be like. i wanna be with you like we were before. i still like u :)
open your eyes adn read is the only way to gain knowledge

this is the first calvin & hobbies comic strip produced. i miss this comic soo badly..

2004-11-06T01:56:00.000+08:00

Exams are over but somehow i feel it's not. EMI/EMC paper was teh worst of the 4 papers. I had alot confidence in it but somehow haiz.. sadly it's the worst i have taken in poly so far. maybe i just didnt try hard enough. But seriously i just don't want another 'C' in my report card. i need to get into a local uni.. Anyway it's teh holidays.. i completed my personal project which was remote access and accessing my PC from any part of the globe..keke

HAiz.. my short short holiday will be spend doing my FYP hopefully i can complete it soon too. mayb god be with me..LOL anyway i watch Ladder 49 with Vicnes today at causeway pt. it's a pretty good show. touching too.. After which i when shopping. Bought a new t-shirt :) no mood to blog today.. maybe a longer entry tmr..

Try Again by Aaliyah

What would you do?
To get to me
What would you say?
To have your way
Would you give up?
Or try again
If I hesitate
To let you in
Now would you be yourself
Or play your role
Tell all the boys
Or keep it low
If I say no
Would you turn away?
Or play me off
Or would you stay, oh, oh

And if at first you don’t succeed
Then dust yourself off and try again
You can dust it off and try again, try again
Cause if at first you don’t succeed
You can dust it off and try again
Dust yourself off and try again, try again (and again)

2004-10-31T22:57:00.000+08:00

Studied today at woodlands lib.. had "fun" and dunno why i'm having a mild headache. anyway, i've alwasy been a big fan of Albert Einstein. here are a couple of quotes i think are really nice. It's the exams.. we all wanna be insipred and not to expire right?

Imagination is more important than knowledge.

The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing.

sometimes in out lives. we lost our way, our dreams and our direction. We need something to constantly remind us. Like when u are young. you parents have to keep nagging or even cane you to finish up your homework. so when thy fail to cane you now that you are so big. you have to remind yourself. take some time off to think and walk back the right path.

I want to live a life where i can dare myself to dream. Dreams do come true if only you make an effort to do smth about it. Like what Einstein said. Imagination is more important than knowledge. I shall be able to tell myself one day that i have at least dared to dream even if i'm not the slightest bit close to it. At least i tried. I rather die daring to dream then die regretting.

2004-10-31T01:17:00.000+08:00

BEP paper was GREAT..totally smashing.. but my 1st paper, BSIP i think can score B ba.. A will really depends how he mark it.

A few more days before my EMI/EMC paper. tmr i have to start revising.. maybe head to woodlands library for some serious revision. Was studying with hendricks yesterday. we shared tables with this 2 young gals sitting for O levels. we started talking and end up i kanna make fun of :( haiz...

watching soccer now, liverpool losing and cisse broke his leg AND my neighbour bo0oing liverpool. stupid buggers!! i will blog again in the night i guess. i gonna stop my online roams i guess i shall stop slowly. i ahve alread y cut down on my online addicition.. perhaps i can find joy in real life then reel life... Gd nite peeps...

2004-10-28T11:26:00.000+08:00

tmr is any paper and it'll be in the morning.. hopefully i can get my stuffs in place by tonite. watched a cinderella story last night. it's nice and there are hidden meanings. i mean the show is like that but it's up to you to read between the lines.. maybe i think too much but as long as i enjoy why not :P

be inspired...

2004-10-26T13:08:00.000+08:00

I'm not being a smart alec but it's just you being not well read enough. If a simple conversation can't be accomplish without you understanding anything then it's fine with me. You didn't have to go all out to destroy the last bit of my good paintings of you. What can't you understand the world is evolving around you and that you are not living in some fairyland. I guess after so long i've finally understood what nicohlas and beatrice wanna tell me about you. And i'm being a little too forgiving. I'm sorry but facts and history cant be re-written.

Went to woodlands lib and guess what?? i saw beatrice. We haven met since like year 1 and to think me, beatrice and nicohlas are best of friends in sec sch.. but i dun think spending time to gether means you are good friends. a good friend is someone you know you nca count on with your secrets and will be there for you. they will also be part of you. we should have an outing real soon.. keke

I'm going off to woodlands to study now before it's too late. paper at 6pm. woke up abit too late. thanks alicia for the msg last night that really cheer me up after that long conversation with a very unreasonable friend. good luck to you for your exams and everyone else :)

2004-10-25T11:16:00.000+08:00

Interlude part II

she has be noticed by him at his first glance. he wants to know her but a barrier is between them. he tires in vain to but was never near till yesterday, he saw her again. this time alone and she still look pretty and her innocent smile was still there after all these years. He stared at her. she sensed it and stared back before she started using her hp to send him a msg to see if it was really him as she wasn't wearing ehr glasses. he replied. she replied.

he then stroll over to her table. she smiled and a new chapter has began... how he longed to be friends with her is now a new begaining in the fading evening sun...

Today will be the deciding day. tmr will be my first paper and i guess all hopes are pinned on my revision today. i know i'm gifted but sometimes lazy. why do i study sometimes for a aimless ambition, i don't know. I'm going off to woodlands library soon. you will not be there but at least i can force myself to do some revision. the morning glory flower dies in the scorching afternoon sun. I'm sorry i woke up abit too late.

close your eyes and feel the salty wind and the swaying palm trees...

2004-10-24T15:03:00.000+08:00

Interlude インタールード

All things began that day....

Tamaki Maiko was my childhood friend. She was too active and hanging around me regardless of my thought. I was always at her beck and call. Though she was noisy during recess, she fell into deep sleep during classes, and that made teachers embarrassed. I thought of these everyday lives, when she played with me and made a fuss with classmates, as natural. Therefore, I didn't think it wasa special occasion when I made the acquaintance with Marufuji Izumi in the train....Until that happened.

The people had disappeared all of a sudden, though many people must have been there a moment before...Then I met with Retsuji Aya. The ordinal days began to collapse when I saw Aya, who had lived lonely in the uninhabited world. Strange things began to happen one after another. I wondered if this world was not real, even my memory was not real?

At the same time, a mysterious girl Saegusa Mitsuki began to appear in front of me. She told me to stop looking for Aya, and to forget all.
However, I want to see Aya...

Each day is the same, and nothing interesting ever happens... or at least, until their peaceful fantasies were shattered starting with a series of prophetic nightmares…

Well, i downloaded 3 esp of this anime yesterday. It really makes your lil professor pumping and i must say full marks for this anime. alot of switching between modes and the real world and the fake. makes u wonder if your existance the sacrifice of others...it's something unique... just like you :)

going off to woodland's lib to study now.. hopefully i can get a place to mugged. haven't been studying the past few days and i really should start my engine before it's really too late..

'Ignorant' Americans will re-elect 'liar' Bush

2004-10-20T02:05:00.000+08:00

HE called Americans 'ignorant' and their president a 'liar'. He had harsh words for the US electorate. 'Surprisingly, the electorate appears to be willing to accept a person who told a blatant lie and to elect a liar as their president.

'I think this augurs badly for the world as the US is a world power,' said Dr Mahathir.

'The American people are, by and large, very ignorant and know nothing about the rest of the world. They think that America is the world.

'Yet, they are the people who will decide who will be the most powerful man in the world. They are not looking at the outside world, only looking at themselves,' he said, adding that he thinks Mr Bush will win the Nov 2 election.

why, i totally agree with him even thought i'm not his biggest fan. but YES The American people are, by and large, very ignorant and know nothing about the rest of the world. They think that America is the world....

Topic for the day and tomorrow for me i guess.. And i thought i was the only one who felt this way abt the Amercians.

good luck for your quiz lil gal :)

2004-10-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

spend the weekend at home trying to revise but somehow there seems to be some firewall in my head. Wish i knew how to disable it. Yesterday was not as productive as today thou. Tmr i dun have any lesson but i guess with exams around the corner, i've decided to go back and look for me Peh to help me with EMI and also hopefully being able to meeet my FYP savior Ms mina.. hahaha hopes all goes well tmr.

I dun really like Britney but i dunno why i forced myself to download this song and in fact i kinda like her old songs to her new ones. Funny twist to my music taste buds..

the secret garden :)

From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart (Britney Spears)

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I´d miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead
Emtiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know?
Still I miss you somehow

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love,
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love,
I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said,
"Please stay
Give our love a chance for one more day"
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love´s all about

But you put a dart
Through my dreams
Through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end

2004-10-15T19:26:00.000+08:00

An Optical illusion.. i found it interesting. sometime we need to open your eyes to find the answers.. maybe that is the beauty of the human mind :)

2004-10-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

So much of things happaneing around my life this couple of weeks. Had to help out with Ice-cream selling for leo in school this week. It's kinda fun minus the endless blood sucking creatures and the ever increasing heat.

I think today i spend the longest time at the booth helping out. Went prepared with long sleeves. haha.. but i think i putting on weight from all the ice-cream..hahaha.. need to work out for NAFA soon.

Sometimes, i get confuse, sometimes i feel warm yet sometimes it's cold. I can feel it but the truth i still dunno. I guess so much of incident in school happen tells us that no one lives forever and any place or time or age anyone can just collapse. life is really unpredictable. I want capture this moment and let it be part of me not today, tomorrow, next week but forever in me.
i feel warm, happy and excited when i'm with... i want to tell you but i dunno how...
If you only know i'm crazy for you....

2004-10-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

Misery- the moffatts

I cry myself to sleep again tonight'
Cause I cannot hold you tight.
I wish I could see you again tomorrow
To take all this sorrow
Sorrow, I'm hollow (misprint in booklet)

When I touch you
Can you feel It
When I need you
Can you give it
When I look in your eyes
Can you see meWhen I fall
Will you catch me, catch me, catch me

MiseryIs what I feel
When you're not around
So I can't healMiseryIs what I feel
Is what I feel

2004-10-03T02:41:00.000+08:00

Just woke up. Couldn't slept till 4am last night because i keep coughing..*stupid cough* Meeting Xian xin and Nicohlas later to play billards at OCC. haven't played that since year2 first. Haven't seen Xian Xin also for a long time. wondering how is he doing being the only boy in class :p

I dunno howto put it in words my feelings but all i can say is in life if you don't try or give it a shot, you never know. Yes i dunno what the future holds but i know it's in my hands to mould it. Give faith and hope a chance.

faith, hope and lucky will pull me throught.. isn't this picure nice..

2004-10-02T18:03:00.000+08:00

A penny for my thoughts? i wish i could but it's getting distance. It's suppose to be a blog but why is it that some thoughts i can't recall, some i can't express, some just seems to float around aimlessly. I Spend my saturday slacking at home..lots of thoughts in that little professor.

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you?
Where are you going to? Do you know?
Do you get what you're hoping for
When you look behind you there's no open door?
What are you hoping for?
Do you know?

I wish all these was just a dream or maybe i can just extract the parts. The winamp seems to be playing endlessly and me staring blankly ahead...

If you only knew - gil

I'd give you everything,
anything,
If you would be mine.
I'd give the stars above,
And all my love,

How can you be so blind?
So blind?
I'm going out of my mind,
All the time,
For you,
Yes it's true.

Chorus
If you only knew,
That I'm crazy for you,
Then you'd understand.
If I only knew,
What you're goin' through,
Then I'd understand.

Now I know that I,
Have no chance,
Oh to make you mine.
If I own the world,
Would you be my girl,
How can you be so blind?

2004-09-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

something i made :P

2004-09-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Kelvin, thanks for the dinner and Thanks Jamie for treating us bowling. haha i can't believe u wrote Bitch as ur nick on the bowling screen..lol and kevin name was gay..hahaha surely one of my best class outing, minus my sore throat. Actually, i diden want to go for the birthday dinner as it was a marina south, BBQ steamboat cus i had a sore throat but, everyone keep calling and smsing me if i was going. So i decided to forgo mysore throat and go..hahaha.. tmr surely plus stamp will have no voice. don need to chat on hp and skype liao..hahaha.*just kidding* hope i be fine.. i drank lots of water just now. feel so *dunno how to discrible*

Tmr stil lgot EMI lecture. Kinda bored going knowing i will not be listening as most of it is self-taught. You really suck sir, is all i can say. Without your lectures life stills goes on and i still get my A grade :)

Guess what? today during my FYP, i burned my chipset. Saw smoke and yes' Black smoke. so stunning. i think i short circuit the chip la..so small how to measure the voltage level. haiz.. anyway, i tested it and it seems still alright even after the smoke appearing haha.. but i'm pretty sure some parts are GONE.

It's surprising me that thian sian and me have been slacking and finding excuses not to do our fyp the past 6 weeks. But this week alone we have been doing 3 days in a row.. how entu we are... hahaha... lets put our hands together and pray we can complete this by this mth and we can enjoy our 2nd sem and get into innovex :p

oh ya..back to tonite. bowling was FUN..haha thian sian who bloast his avg was 170 got the lowest score..wahahha.. only 49..muahahahaha i got 103 avg thou i didn play my best :P but i'm pretty happy. i got 3 strikes. :)

tmr got emi again.. dreads. may i be on time for my lecture in the morning :p

2004-09-27T17:52:00.000+08:00

I cant seem to be able to sleep till 4am. what's wrong with me? i just lay on my bed till the wee hours. if this goes on i need pills or i be a panada(hopefully not) woke up at 1130am today which is smth i shall not be proud of.

Anyway, i missed OM lecture but i doubt i missed out much :p reach school at 1pm to do my FYP. I would say it's going quite smoothly now. Finally some results.. thanks to T10 TSO and Ms Mina. My reciever is still not done but the transmitter testing is almost done liao. Today seems so pack dunno why. I'm still have a slight headache or i should say in daze, prob due to my late nights. Little gal, rest and drink more water k..take care of urself ar... :p

The answer i'm searching from yesterday..

2004-09-26T10:57:00.000+08:00

helpped out at Creative yesterday in support for thesociety for the physically disabled. It was a sort of sing along 60s, 70s & 80s event. We were there to help sell tickets. Tired is the word to discrible. Had Leo meeting at 9am before heading to IMM to buy some stuffs for our club.

Representing Leo was Alicia, Wei ling, Steve, Law and me. had quite a fun time minus the song session where i didn know erm 80% of the songs. My head is still spinning, i dunno why. Got pics taken of us during the event :)

People with big hearts :p [wei ling, Alicia , me, Law, Steve]

Remember i said i like you over the phone? well, it is true. I really do. I don't know if you feel the same but i just wanted you to know.

2004-09-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

Spent the day in school collecting back my MST papers. After which i met Alicia for tea break at the Cafe. Nothing really interesting today except Hotmail shuding down on me and i got my 15min written email wipe out...*relax* back to a happier topic...

I got back all my MST papers.. got almost what i expected not mentioning some surprises. haha
for BSIP, i was expecting a just pass as seriously i just anyhow do one. But funny leh..i got 80marks..lol.. for the rest i got wad i put in :) so no regrets.. tmr i have to help out at Creative to replace jerry whose, granny passed away. hope he isn't too sad about it. Well speacking of which i haven visited my granny in 3 weeks in a row liao.. she's gonna kill me i swear. But no choice, the first time was my sis birthday, the second time was Leo club gatehring. now is creative.. but i prob go over on sunday nite to see her :) miss disturbing yun ting..ahahahaha

Tmr have B.O.D meeting also.. gonna wake up early *dreads*. hopefully everything goes well tmr..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Thian Sian, May our FYP be a success. You are 20 also boy..muahaha!!!

2004-09-23T01:08:00.000+08:00

Just another day in school. Wore the shirt Aunt Eileen bought for my birthday to school. Had Leo meeting at 3pm before going back. pei Alicia till lakeside before meeting Nic for our long ride home from Jurong East. Went for a scroll at NorthPoint and bought ice-cream keke.. walk around. NorhtPoint never change leh.. forever the same. prefer Causeway Pt.

Tmr will be another normal day in school but have to stay back till 2pm to do OM project. Then on friday going to lantern festival at toa payoh.. there to help out :) erm..Saturday have to go back to school for Leo meeting, after which Alicia, Joanna and me will be going to buy the Leo club needy tools.. haha... *[now alicia mad..talking to herself online..hahahaha sorry gal..] my entry today kinda bored so added it to spice things up.. bleah!!

Good luck for your test tmr gal!!

2004-09-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

21th Sept 2004..wet wet wet..Liverpool lose to Man utd even thou i stay up till 3am just to watch. 2-1 was the score. Before i stepped in front of my front door, it started to rain cats & dogs. Brought the umbrella along but that useless piece of junk just made me even wetter *sneeze* you get the picture.. anyway, when i got to the mrt station, i was drench from top to bottom even can put gold fishes in my shoes.

Got back my first paper BEP. Scored a respectable grade. 72 but could have done better if i had put in more effort. Apart from tat i spend part of my BSIP lecture feeling uncomfortable wif my wet shoes and still wet clothes. caught a cold too.

Was debating to go for Jap classes or not because i was down wif cold and was soaked wet. But in the end i decided to go. And guess wad, i got top in class for my Jap MST. 91 marks.. i even ask my sensei if she saw the name wrongly.. haha...

There be Leo meeting this saturday. At least it's not on next wed when i have to wait 4 hours again. *rejoice* Btw, daddy and Jing shan have new HP. so envy :p actually not i targeting my daddy's 8850..muhaha.. Alicia about those rashes, take care okie..dun forget to apply ur cream..

Love is like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it.. don you think so.. i definately felt it.

2004-09-19T15:49:00.002+08:00

Had a great time this year on my Birthday. Firstly, thank you all for the presents. Andy, Joanna & Alicia thanks for the mooncake and the sweets. Thanks for the birthday card Alicia. It's the first handmade card i've received for my birthday in my 20 years :)

Had BBQ at Alicia's place with Andy, Joanna and Lion yeoh. Had a great time. Learned mahjong too from Andy and Alicia. The food was awesome esp the chicken wings, otah and prawns. I love Dextor too..haha wish i had a cute lil noisy dog. I'm still trying to finish the sweets given by u all..if i fall sick u noe who caused it..haha just kidding.. Left Alicia's place at around 1130pm..wanted to stay longer cause we having so much of fun but had to catch the last train. so, maybe next time yeah.. Btw, i took alot of pics of dextor.. will post them the next time when i upload it to my pc..

I'll like to thank everyone for all there best wishes and presents :)

I'll have to agree with you. Let natural take it's course. Just see how it goes. I'll be waiting with hope..

2004-09-17T00:18:00.001+08:00

be Happy Birthday to me!! gosh, i'm 20, no longer a TEEN. *kicks the table* (OUCH!!) okie, lets not get carried away.. had my first paper yesterday. BEP totally suck yesterday. I memorise all the theory and wah, 90% of the paper was to draw block diagrams..

Well, todays paper was better apart from the MCQ. Guess what!! after my BSIP paper, we going to have BBQ at Alicia's place. So looking forward to that. But tmr i prob be spending time at home mugging for my BSIP paper. Later in the night got no one to pei me for dinner :( haiz... thought a birthday dinner will be perfect ...

I shall make a birthday wish.. I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish, to have 10 more wishes..wahhahahahahaha ok..serious ar... hmm... to get complete my year 3 in flying colors and get into Uni.. and erm, i also to *secret* hahahahhahahaha... and *scratch head* have lots of money to spend and alot alot alot alot MORE.. am i asking for too much? keke..

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

2004-09-13T20:45:00.000+08:00

cold rice, bitchy maid.. partly screw up day. . . can't it get better when the tests are so much nearer. for better or for worse i still stand alone.

went to school to study with nicohlas and joanna. Andy joined us later in the day. there was chaos as usual when andy joined us. later that day met alicia to go home. pei her to boon lay interchange. wanted to send her home but she refused my kind offer. hmm... anyway, i shall try very hard to forcus on my studies for the coming mid-sem test.

dumbfounded happens when u taste lemon sweet instead of sour. . .

2004-09-12T00:51:00.000+08:00

It's been a long journey. Spend my saturday mugging at home with the accompany of alicia online with me on skype. Tmr i'll be going mugging at woodland library. Guess that's pretty much my life. Have lots of thoughts running through my head. To ask to say or not to do.... why can't God create the human mind to be more easily understandable?

Went to Orchard to slack around on thursday with alicia. took a few neoprints. not very nice la..cus we dunno how to operate the machine :) thanks for sepnding that day with me thou it wasn't exactly the most interesting outing, I'm glad i wasn't there alone.

2004-09-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

Down by the Salley Gardens..there was a boy with unspoken ego... MST is coming so is my birthday..If i want, i think to be precise it'll be erm...less then 1 week & here i am slacking around. 2 days without progress on biomedical equipment. I thought it was the simplest module but was wrong..speaking of unspoken ego... I, kang jing quan do here by pledge to study hard with min. distractions from wed onwards.. haha..

miss the times the nights...

WISHES
Emi Fujita

You just have to dream
Nothing is bad as it seems to be believe me
Someone's waiting for you to try

There in the sky
One star brighter then the others
Two hearts beating for each other
We will see wishes really come true

2004-08-31T21:24:00.000+08:00

私を逃しなさいか? (how are you?) Wow, i cant believe i haven't been blogging for so long.. Just finished my Japanese MST. I kinda choke thru my oral. I think my written one was worst thou.. So much has happen within this short period. I've managed to find part of my soul :). Spent most of my time online slacking and also trying really hard to revise. Did it with a litle success :)

have been introduced to alot new things of recent. Alicia tag me a few days ago to this Japanese fast food i cant recall the name.. They serve really good food there and compare to your typical fast food joint, this one offers REAL japanese green tea, which is said to preserve one's youth :p

Gosh, i've got so much to say but cant seem to piece them all together. MST is coming up so is my Birthday *hint hint* but seriously i can't believe my birthday falls on the study day JUST before my last paper. *sigh.. I dun have much to say for now..The young cresent moon is hanging outside my window and all i can think about is.....

FROM A DISTANCE
Emi Fujita

From a distance
The world looks blue and green
And the snow capped mountains white

From a distance
The ocean meets the stream
And the eagle takes to flight
From a distance
There is harmony
And it echoes through the land
Its the voice of hopeIts the voice of peace
Its the voice of every man

2004-08-17T08:53:00.000+08:00

So many unforeseen things happen when you least expect. I thought it was bad but come yesterday, shit, hell broke loosed. Why can't all these happen on friday 13th and i have some to put the blame on.

I think not only me, Alicia seems to be going thru a rough patch. take care too okie.. Thanks for the listening ear, you know who you are :) btw, i managed to get back in contact with my pri sch buddy esmond, found him in friendster. he's currently working in the zoo.haha.. How can i ever forget those good times spent. Speaking of studies, i haven't being muggling enough or should i say hard enough.

One by one you leave me behind, aimlessly and broken. I can forgive but i can't forget. ihate all of you..

2004-08-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

So many day's have passed.. Just finished a major event I&I. Thanks everyone for the help. I think i kinda suck doing MCee. Sorry Alicia.

I'm where i was standing a few months ago again. When i least expect, it happen . what am i to do? who am i to choose? i really dunno. I may even end up with none. i dunno what i want. I cant decide my path why is that so.. I try not to think of it but when ever i see either one i just... can't life be something like maths?

I wish i could have some one to confide all my thoughts and feeling to. I'm really afriad to be alone again.

Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' both of you is breakin' all the rules
You mustn't think you've failed me just because there's someone else
You were the first real love I ever had
And all the things I ever said, I swear they still are true
For no one else can have the part of me I gave to you

2004-07-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

Quantization the process of conversion of an analogsignal into a digital signal. Any signal amplitude between two quantization levels can be quantizedto the closest level. b .bla bla bla being studying Biomedical signal & Image processing. Going nuts.. Still have to revise EMI/EMC. THAT is gonna really BITE!!

Today is alot better but found out my FYP devices passed down from the previous group is not working and worst of all it is both devices.*rolls eyes* no comments thou.. too pissed to even think of that. But nevertheless today was alot better. Had lunch with ahmad like we did in our secondary school days. Had a hair cut and looking more handsome..haha

Saturday i may join leo club members to do social work cus my friend can;t make it for the movie outing on saturday :(

Enjoying the pleasure of life before you long for it...

2004-07-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

The transit of Satan through the sun will cause a catastrophe. The slightest of forgetfulness caused the resurrection of the things I had to go through today. I've just realize how much we are dependent on technology. Waited 4 hours for nothing due to a miscommunication. ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Life hasn't improved since yesterday. I wave of fear, a hand of ice and the spark of anxiety is enough to eradicate me. I thought it was all nicely planned. Life isn't gonna be easy this week. The dark mark still floats in the sky.

I cannot take this anymore. It's unlike anything I seen before. Everything just makes no sense. I've gone retarded. My priorities have switched sides. I cannot seem to draw the strength to pull me through. Yes I'm a grumpy little boy complaining. Lost in the unknown live..

Things are getting different. Don't you just wish you had just one more, just that one more day….

2004-07-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

When I'm so close, I feel I'm been pull away but when I'm away I long to be closer. He is like a glue stick in your memory. How I wish I could lend a helping hand. Different and unique you are upon me. Known you long enough for me to feel this way but maybe we are just from a different world completely. Sorry I missed the boat but now the both of you are here, what should i do?

Lazy day, crazy day..Meeting after school and my passion of Harry potter has become a obession. Cant seem to stop reading. GOD!! Save the Shepard.. Reading the Order of the phoenix now. I'm gonna struggle with my Jap. I know I should not be complaining about it since I chose my own path but it seems I also make wrong decision.

I never believe in myself till you gave me that chance...

2004-07-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Just finished Harry Potter and the goble of fire. Spent the whole day at home reading it. Seemed to get addicted to this book, which I once said was lame.

Attended Yuhua Secondary school I&I with Alicia yesterday.. Nice to meet new friends. There I&I were very good. I wonder how would ours be like..Alicia?? haha.. Afterwhich, we went window shopping at IMM.

Once again tomorrow school as usual.. haiz.. Jap lesson is really maxing me out!! Why did I sign up? I'm also lost. It's a challenge that i shall fullfill.

Mountains i can climb, seas i can conquer but with out you i crumble...

2004-07-21T00:44:00.000+08:00

Caught brotherhood yesterday. It is the best war movie I've seen so far. How far will you go for your brother? What would you have done if it was you?

As you can see i have even change my blogskin. For the unification eh..

FYP still sucks, if i ever fail a module, i gonna be FYP. dun wanna talk abt it liao..life is still going fine. bitch to the future.. lol..

Jap lessons are gettign tougher but the knowledge gain is worth-while. What's life without learning. The progress never stops.. I've been waking up late and then late for school.. gonna break this habit. Sorry Joanne i haven add your blog in the linkie list..sorrie.. i do it tmr or during the weekend ok..hehe

In war, people are mere bricks used to bulit on. Don't you agree??

2004-07-19T10:22:00.000+08:00

The block at the cross road leading to now-where. Life is simple but our mind makes it complex. Skipped morning lessons. Couldn't wake up. This is really bad. I hope that fello teaches nothing impt.

This week promises to be ultra busy. Have Jap tomorrow and wed, well, I'm not sure yet. Thursday I'll be seeing the doctor to check up on my sorry back. Friday well, i end at 5pm so where to go???

Alicia, your meow meow picture really suits u.haha grr!!! hahaha... Looking forward to the game of RISK at your place ar....

Dreams are the path to reality...

2004-07-17T02:49:00.000+08:00

The fear of death is the howling of the wind across the desolated wasteland. The importance of losing something, makes ou regret why you did'nt take a moment to cherish and absorb the feeling when it was before. regrets we learn to live with. fear we learn to detour from. Love we try to share. Pride we hide from glare. Dreams are the sparks for the ignition.

Hurt my back playing badminton yesterday, what more can I say. It hurts like hell and all I did to deserve that was just to bend down for the shuttle-cock.

2th week of school and I must say so far my course has been great. Just need more time for revision. I'll be chairing the Lion's Home visit tomorrow. Hopefully lots of people turn up. Gonna thank Alex, Simon & Andy for the great support. Not forgetting Alicia who is already totally maxed out wif her I&I for cheering me up when I'm all so crushed.

Jap is killing me. What my dad said is true, 2 hours of teaching time is equals to 5hours of self-study. I had to struggle to memorize the 4 basic characters out of the 25 I need to know.

16 July is Pam's Birthday..sweet 18!!

2004-07-14T15:42:00.000+08:00

Blogging today on yesterday seem to be the habit of late. The sleep bug has really gotten into me. I can't say I had much fun of late but one thing for sure is killing and if it's not the boring Org Mgt lecture then it surely has to be my FYP(final yr proj). Things are kinda in a mess but I've learn to tame the dragon within. Hope everything goes well.

Had Jap lessons yesterday. It was really fun but yet it was abit hard to catch up with the sensei. learned a few intro and reply lines. We will be learning Hiragana. Meet a few new friends and one of my classmates turned out to know my childhood friend. what a small world.

Today was a sleepy day. Org Mgt lecture was so boring. His voice, his methods and style just make me feel like telling him he is not cut for teaching. I'm not saying i'm better but at least spare a thought for us with our boring lecturer. Img 1/2 hr on one page. Upon leaving the room, i saw nicole outside. she gave me a big hug..so pie sei cos there were so many of my classmates and friends around. Most importantly, people were staring. Collected the sample project from my lectuer in-charge. Thank GOD i manage to get my hands on that.

Just finish Harry Potter Book 1. Going on to 2 but i dun have that book. Any one wanna lend me?

2004-07-10T23:04:00.000+08:00

Sleepless nights are so simple to experience but so hard to start. The dark clouds have shielded my sun. It's has been raining since the day my soul left the container. The pretense of myself is the contridiction of the self spoken lies that may pull me through today, tomorrow but not in reflection in the mirror shattered with all my self-pretense. The suspense is eating my soul, the anxiety has overflowed, I'm left with my pride, my ego, and my trilogy.

Did community service the whole day. Tired and torrid. Ate so much I think I can just gain 5kg on the spot.We ad fun today nevertheless exhusted. nice day guys and my partner Alicia :)

Life is fine but the pretense of it seems false.

The viewing the pictures now seem different when i was there. I fought a battle to win not yield. He was there. Flip of the coin and he changed. The rurouni has become a monster who is to be blame. His society is at fault, But Provoke him and you see his backbone is gone. He is in the middle of his society. I may not be right but my ego, pride and mind tells me I am NOT him. The pictures that was left behind are just memories of a different life.

Reading harry potter after all the hype has died. Got it from my little cousin. Hope J.K Rowling lives up to her name.

Fate is controlled by God or us? The answer, it depends on the situation. The world is filled with mysteries and we live to find out and decode each one. The more complex it gets the easier it actually is.

Just like before it's yesterday once more...

2004-07-05T18:19:00.000+08:00

School's re-open, 3 cheers..Time table isn't too bad. Got into my chioce, Bio-medical so no reasons for me to slack. Decided to plan weekly time-table to better help me manage myself.

I caught Windstruck yesterday night. Its a wonderfully beautiful show. I have to say it was surely better then my sassy gal. It's my favorite now!! It's bitchy, hell of a funny, Stupid, damn sad and lastly so B.e.a.u.tiful..I haven't watch such a show before. It's surely better then my sassy gal. Jeon Ji-hyeon never fails to impress me with her bitchy sassy role.

I thought she was bitchy when their was a part she said "i don't say sorry, It's not in my vocabary not unless you change your name to sorry"

Even the sound tracks are superb i have one at the background. Windstruck can give any hollywood movie a run for it's money.

Back to my studies, i raring to get started with my final year project. Managed to match a time slot for me and Thian sian. Hopefully my lecturer in charge can make it too. I guess that's abt all for my first day back at school. Having chicken nuggets for dinner *yummmy* Oh ya, for the cca booth, thanks, everyone for helping. It's only for 1 week bear with it. And keep it up!!

roar roar roar!! lol..i'm getting crazy again

2004-07-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

Burnt, Torn and sandy... I had a smashing time at sentosa today with angie. I diden really plan to swim nor did i planned to have a tan but in the end i did both. Bought along a few pieces of clothes just in case thou. I finally get to taste teh salty sea water after eh, abt 10 yrs liao since i last swarm in the sea. And about 6 years since i last went swimming. Tiring but enjoyable. I think I'm getting nicky and gang there to have fun when we are free one day. I was so envying those guys playing beach soccer, ruby on the sand and those back flips in the water.

Here's a song which i hear on the radio and it bought back sweet memories. Thought i share it...there's a small snipplet of the song

Carpenters - Yesterday Once More

When I was young I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my fav'rite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile
Those were such happy times and not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I love so well
Ev'ry sha-la-la-la ev'ry wo-ho-wo-ho still shines
Ev'ry shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing so fine
When they get to the part
Where he's breaking her heart
It can really make me cry just like before
It's yesterday once more

Lookin' back on how it was in years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad so much has changed
It was songs of love that I would sing to them
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away

Ev'ry sha-la-la-la ev'ry wo-ho-wo-ho still shines
Ev'ry shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing so fine
All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry just like before
It's yesterday once more

2004-07-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

Back from my cycling trip yesterday. Took a couple of beautiful shoots of the sunset at sembawang beach. I was surely a taxing trip there. So tiring!! Perhaps I haven't been cycling that's why. haha.. Tomorrow, I'll be going to the beach again but this time to sentosa with Angie. Hopefully it will be fun and I don't get too burnt.

Anyway, today is the last day of ITP collected a small sum of money but barely enough. Well I did spent my day shopping for a new slipper and groceries with my sister Jing Shan. Bought soo many nice stuffs for our pleasure..haha the $50 bucks my mom gave for the groceries left were just receipts haha..

The sunset picture I think is so beautiful. And the latter picture i think really paints a classical lonely kind of picture.

2004-07-01T16:37:00.000+08:00

Had a tiring day yesterday running, running and running. Guess what after 19 sorry years, i finally get to offically fly a kite..haha and at first there wasn't much of a success but slowly i kinda pick it up and then boom, it was UP wee~ Law suggested the idea and along came Alicia.

Law started slow but heck once he got his kite up, he ran out of string and haha he let the kite go.Later in teh day,I'm going cycling with Vicnes to Sembawang beach. I dun have a bike but i'm loaning one from him.haha hope it's a good that he is loaning me.

Life seem more interesting doing real things then reel one isn't it. perhaps i'm almost getting there. BTW saturday I'm goign to sentosa with Angie. I owed her a trip there. I've got no idea what i'll be doing haha.. hope it goes fun :) actually, as i said life seems so refresh doing real things instead. ok i'm naggy..haha

Sorry and pardon me for being impatient recently:) u noe who i refering to rite..haha bunny blek* Anyway, here are the pictures we took while flying kite, btw shit i forgot to take any pictures of myself..argh!!!!

Life provides mistakes for us to learn from them. To be strive and not yield..

2004-06-29T22:40:00.002+08:00

Wild world

Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving
Baby I'm grieving

And if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
A lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
(yeah...) oh baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child girl

You know I've seen a lot of
What the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
Coz I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there's
A lot of bad and beware

So much for today. I finally got my LAN to work smoothly for all my computers, especially my mom's laptop. Spent my whole day home when i had the choice of going to the beach with Angie. Nevertheless, i woke up at 1pm, settled down at 3pm, so i guess almost half the day is gone. whats the point then right.. right!!

Sometimes I feel i have yet to understand even 3% of myself. I was dumbfounded when law ask me this question yesterday, what do i like to do. I can't even answer that simple question. How do i prove my existence, or what is stronger then a person will to live. I dunno myself and i wish i could soon.

If i can live life again,i wanna be a tree

2004-06-27T01:04:00.000+08:00

Had a spendid day today. Ok I was late for meeting because I needed to go the the foreign language dept to collect my Jap text-books. When i flipped through it gosh!! I didn't understand a shit..haha..all in Japanese sia. I then got my ass in to meeting room 10 min late.

After the meeting, Andy, Joanna, Alicia & me went to Clementi for lunch. Of couse I had a yummy lunch and not forgetting Andy's rubbish talk. BTW, Andy dressed like an uncle in t-shirt, slacks and SLIPPERS. Too bad i forgot my cam today else you people will be laughing ya asses off..haha..

After lunch, Joanna & me decided to check out Alicia's house. A long ride on bus 99 there, followed by a long walk too. Alicia's house is very nice(see again no cam else i can post it here). I like the second level open space concept. Not to mention, her cute doggy, Dextor. The dog is really cute and so jumpy. Wish i had one. We kinda spend the day looking at photos and watch some dumb chinese cartoon. haha it made the 2 of them laugh but i was reading the newspapers. Alicia's mom came home and i was kinda scared at first cus she looked fierce. More fierce then tat silly little gal Alicia ;p haha..

We spent time playing with Dextor too.. i think we were slacking at her place till like 7PM.sorry to take up so much of ya time. BTW, did you know Alicia last time look so geeky in the photos now alot cuter and prettier esp with her new hair-cut :)

Afterwhich, i went to granny's house as usual for dinner and my dad was reading through my Japanese text-book and taught me a thing or two. He said i sure give up half way.. we shall see..sayonara~

2004-06-24T21:09:00.000+08:00

I was most likely possessed yesterday having said those things. My LAN is up BUT there's a catch, the signal in my room is "very low" and at times I even get DC. My sister & mom on the other hand are receiving very strong signals and are making monkey faces at me i swear they do those shit.. My mom lah,want to put the router out in the living room and when I'm behind like 5 layers of walls at the back of my house. *sigh* I resign to fate.

Singnet staffs claim to be here by 10 but heck 11:30 then come scrolling in. And to think I woke up so early. I missed meeting today because of this. I hope my teammates are not to mad about this.

I'm still in shockness from yesterday's concert. Tied out. I'm still a little irritated with that dumb "low signal" thingy...I guess I would have to think of other alternatives. Oh ya!Damn, my HP bill is $76. I wonder how I'm gonna pay this time.

Mondays are only the start of my depression and Fridays reserved for my admittance..

2004-06-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

Back from LKP concert..Wee~ took a few pictures. Damn..i was there at 6pm and Ms chia was complaining liao. There was some weird Korean band performing too. So noisy but hey, some songs were good. The worst part was that Linkin Park was to perform at 8pm but heck they started at 9:30pm. Make me wait so long. But they were forgiven once that mic is in chester's hands..wahaha It was so damn good!!

But along the way there were some problems. Got one Malay guy was so mad he got slap and almsot got into a fight for repeatingly touching a gal next to me. I dun think he did it on purpose. Cus he was like high or smth..haha.. Anyway i give it a 8/10 :)

Today, Dinesh and Rahman were talkign on some war stuffs and i got this suddenly feeling i was cold blooded. Should i murder i will not feel remorse. It's actually scary to even think of it. I'm a stronge believer of the Kamikaze.

Sometimes, pride is something you have left and all you want is to keep it to the every end. I think my mind is corrupted with these thoughts. Even though i understand myself better recently, the revealation of this has proved to be a major setback. or maybe i wasan japanese samurai before. I worship the samurai spirt. A samurai sword is a must i feel in even modern day army.

I Will kill anyone in my way if i was a part of the north korean army fighting for Unification. Gosh i'm really cold blooded at times what has become of me? i really dunno.

I dun wan the innocent eyes to shape into a killers one. I'm so tense and it's just lucky i'm living in singapore and not in Japanese The Showa era where Some people kill for the feeling of existence in this world and that's a scary thought. Peharps the thrill of Russian Roulette is enough for my thirst of blood or Perhaps i still need to understand myself..

wad a long blog today..haha..anyway here are the pictures :)

The queue for the $87 tickets one. The $152 one's worst.

Me before the concert. still spikey!!

Linkin PArk is here and jamming..HELL YES!!!*finally too

torned and shagged after the concert.ALL wet too..

2004-06-22T12:29:00.000+08:00

A young man with great heart will be backstab. His blood will flow into the rivers and to the sea. People around will suffer. For he was betrayed by his own love.
- this is for you the villain

Well, well, well, today is wad day? LKP concert day. I'm so thrilled and excited. Going with Jin xian, Mavan and Ms Chia. Hope it'll be fun. hehe.. I'm in a good mood yeah. bought the lastest gatsby wax and also some fake ear rings..whahaha gonna look PUNK tonite.. :)

Haven't been updated my blog cos i've beening working on my other webby, piggy.oink-oink.net do check it out!!

2004-06-18T14:55:00.000+08:00

I screwed up everything. My useless brain haven't been working and what it's doing is making me feel more upset only. There are so many things for me to do but I dunno if I would do. The pain,the stress,the agony is killing me..Sometimes I jus wanna sleep and never wake up but I can't there will be a point of time I would wake up. How do I face all these troubles alone? Will it be better off this way?

The pain is such a sudden rush for me. Why does all these things come in a huge mess? It's may fault? Or I'm fated to be like this. I never really believe in fate till today. What's the point when everywhere everyone doesn't care. Screw my job, EVERYTHING I'm got get out of here. The only thing not stopping me is you. Should you lost faith too, I don't think I can stand up again.

I have never said this but I know this is gonna anger some people maybe a lot. I've always looked up to The 124th Emperor of Japan, Emperor Hirohito,The Showa era, as his reign is called. And the man whom was a Jew but hated them, Adolf Hilter.

I shall not explain why they command such respect from me although they are villains during the war. Some things are to be kept secret.

I'm gonna read this book.bought it a long time ago but diden have time to finish it. Hopes it give me back my strength and courage to face the world once again and to find the answer to my unknown question.

2004-06-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

A brand new look for my blog. diden really like seeing myself as pope in my prev skin. and i thought everything was too cramp. I LOVE THIS SKIN!!!

Today as usual work despite me being sick. slight fever, sore throat and a very heavy head. lack of sleep i guess.Perhaps i'm already half brain dead.

6 years of praticse for a moment of thrill. Shit, my head feels heavy again. prob go get some sleep soon. I can afford to fall sick on 22 June 04..Linkin Park yeah! haha..

I really wanna get to know you better. why don't you unlock the door for me to open. For i wanna hold your hands till the end of time..

2004-06-15T10:20:00.000+08:00

May you just rot in hell, i wish i never knew you. Thought you were someone i could trust but i was so wrong. When you're sad,ditched and cry.. who was there? Despite all i still made time. Now you found a new suit I'm thrown. If that's how you measure the length it's fine with me.

Sometimes when i wanna be alone, you cling on. Is this torment or self-inflict? I'm outta here. Life still have to go on with or without you. The pictures that you left behind are just memories of a different life. Thanks though. All the best for our future Endeavor.

Gosh, it's pretty late liao..gotta run off to sch for meeting liao..maybe blog again tonight.

Would it be the same if i saw you in heaven...

2004-06-12T15:30:00.000+08:00

bad throat = bad day that's how i'm feeling now. Perhaps it's the lack of sleep. But why am i still so far from the shore?

I'm sickly feeling so sore. My throat hurts. I'm unable to sleep well. Why all these torment? I dunno what's wrong with my throat but it spoiled my entire day. Wanted to do so much today but i guess i'm left with none. spent my day reading off my computer. btw, i have purchased LIKP concert tickets.The count down starts...

Like a worm crawling in my head
ps: Sorry Alicia!!

2004-06-09T22:41:00.000+08:00

why it it always so near yet so far. Is my life fated this way? can't people jus mind their own business. If poking their nose into other people problems gives them pleasure, why not try a broom stick up their rear.

I hate it when i get shouted for the wrong reasons. who does rite!! life skills? hell with it. I'm so vexed. But after my mom talked to me i'm alot cooler liao. sometimes i wanna run away and never wonder why. shut my eyes and never open them.

Life is a bitch not a bed of roses. Hell we all know that ahem. I should be happier instead cus i'm going to LKP concert soon. Jin Xian, i'm counting on you for the tickets :)

Ps: Alicia, sorry to bother you the whole day even thou you're also not in the best of moods. cheer up :)

2004-06-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

My back still hurts and my heart feels loney. Why is earning so tough and spending also so tough? But a gift can make you smile and giving makes people happy!! nucase me... writting rubbish..haha

Anyway, I collected cookies from Alicia today. Had a hard time looking for her..haha Hmm..i was wondering the whether the cookies where poisoned..haha but the cookies Alicia made are really nice. You should bake it for everyone in Leo..haha.. :p nothing much today happan also..but Alicia,i want more cookies okie..hehe

2004-06-07T02:37:00.000+08:00

YEAH, FINALLY!!! my PC is in my room but WAIT.. my sister has a new PC with a LCD monitor.*so envy* We are going Wireless at home soon.WAHAHAHA.. I'm so thrilled. I'm happily blogging in my room now.. hehe.. hurted my back while fixing my sis dumb PC. So tired now...

Here are some interesting things about me you may wanna KPO!!

10 IMPORTANT THINGS INSIDE YOUR BACKPACK :

1. hp
2. tissue paper
3. wallet
4. pen
5. rubbish
6. water botter
7. books (duh! tat's if i'm schooling)
8. dunno lah
9. air?
10. dust?

9 THINGS THAT YOU REALLY WANT NOW :

1. An LCD monitor(i'm so eny of my sis)
2. Wireless LAN at Home
3. NEW house (prefer a condo)
4. NEW HP(T610)
5. Trip to Thailand
6. A Lexus
7. Long nice sleep
8. Bigger room
9. Food

8 OF YOUR FAVOURITE FOODS :

1. Otak
2. Fried Rice
3. Century egg congee
4. Laska
5. Mutton Curry
6. BK
7. Mos Burger
8. Ebi Tampura

7 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS :

1. Nicohlas
2. Beatrice
3. Alicia
4. Dinesh
5. Nicole
6. Alice
7. My penguin

6 OF YOUR FAVOURITE MOVIES :

1. A walk to remember
2. Euro -trip
3. 50 First Dates
4. Infernal Affairs
5. 8 mile
6. So close

5 THINGS IN YOUR ROOM :

1. Computer(Finally)
2. CD player
3. bed
4. cupboard
5. Books

4 THINGS YOU ATE/DRANK TODAY :

1. Beef rice
2. bee hoon with chicken wings
3. Butter cookies
4. waffle hotdog

3 THINGS YOU COULDNT LIVE WITHOUT :

1. Internet
2. HP
3. My books(this sounds so geeky)

2 THINGS YOU USUALLY READ :

1. Straits Times
2. People's thoughts

1 PERSON YOU CAN'T FORGET :

The girl who made my heart skip a beat..

2004-06-06T01:16:00.000+08:00

The pain eased as the seconds ticked away. Here I am stranded watching the crowd flow. Sometimes it's nice being alone but the silence within can be scary at times. Deep in thoughts, shocked by a voice.

Every passing being seems to has a motivation driven within them except me. Even though i'm sitting, my legs are sore. Given time it wouldn't be , but the thought remains.

This skin was planned according to my thoughts and inspirations. Time to be re-born Jing Quan. Time to open your eyes. Let your creativity take you places you never thought was possible.

Attended the Leo Talent Nite yesterday. Thanks to everyone involved whom made this possible. It was an crazy nite for me. Just ask Alicia..haha.. not to mention the cute gals around :p.. i'm craving for more. Here are some pictures taken..

Here i'm with 2 extras from IMH

me and Renzhen. Picture got me of cos nice :p

me and a silly lil gal (Alicia)

Mirror mirror on the wall...etc

Life was never ugly. You just have to see it from different angles before commenting.

2004-06-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

Scotty doesn't know,
That fionne and me,
Do it in my van every Sunday.

She tells him shes in church,
But she doesn't go,
Still shes on her knees, and...

Scotty doens't know, oh.
Scotty doesn't know-oh.
So don't tell Scotty!
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know.
SO DON'T TELL SCOTTY!

Fionna says shes out shopping,
But shes under me and I'm not stopping.

Cuz Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know.
So don't tell Scotty.
Scotty doesn't knoooooow....
DON'T TELL SCOTTY!

I can't believe he's so trusting,
While I'm right behind you thrusting.

Fionna's got him on the phone,
and she's trying not to moan.
It's a three way call,
and he knows nothing.
NOTHING!!!

Scotty doesn't know......

Caught the movie 'confessions of a teenage drama queen' with pam. nice show and yes it was dramatic..lol it makes one feel liek gettign to our every own drama mode. heck i think i can be a drama mama some day. Sometimes i'm really shy so i gonna overcome that.

I got so many things to say but can't seem to recall what i wanna say. YES! i hurt my knee falling from the escalator..fucking dun laugh i noe all you ppl laughing.*shit* actually i can' recall my thoughts. nvm i'll pen them down the next time..welcoem back alicia.

2004-05-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

Just packed the suitcase full of regrets. I hailed a taxi in the rain. Looking for some place to ease the pain... (dun ask me why, but I love this song lyric)

Sometimes I wonder if Love can really be nurtured? Does time bond two souls together? Is there such a thing as love at first sight and if there is how do you know it's love and not a crush. Can some one explain? I think this 4 letters(love) are tougher then Einstein relativity theory on space travel.

complexity scares me. Simplicity gets me all complacent. What should I do. God, why am I asking so much of questions. I love asking question to the point it actually irritates people. My dad say I 'ask' because I'm too lazy to read up but I beg to differ. I believe this is my own way of learning.

How I describe myself:

I'm crazily insane
sometimes paranoid
always talkertive
sometimes hyper-active
inspires to be a TEACHER
wants to start a revolution
will always be curious!!!

Worked today at SPGG and at the same time met so many new friends. The pay isn't the best but hey, having fun is all that counts.

Life is too short to spend slacking around but why work hard when it doesn't matters(so contradicting) haha...

2004-05-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

The least expected happens.Sins that are cleansed were soiled again. when can i steer on to the right path. Sometime i feel mix colors blending within my aura. These are just some thoughts i can't throw.

Looking forward meeting you. But so many buses are running through my head just like a suddenblow that just hit you without you even noticing. Spent the day home.

The river will flow to the sea tomorrow..

2004-05-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

A tired pair of legs is all i'm left. After work today i met Nicole to jalan jalan. gosh! she was dressed so jap and cute today lol.. luckily i wasn'y badly dressed else pie sei sia.. Tmr i'll be heading to bedok to work..*sigh*

Alicia left for camp today. hope she has fun. Short of one silly gal online liao..haha she can't read this for now :p it's so warm today, so is every other day these month. *wad am i saying..

can't keep my eyes off you :D

2004-05-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

Just finished the banner today. Had a tough time gluing the letters to the banner cos i was down with flu. *dreads* but luckily got Alicia to finish up..haha.. *thanks* I finally manage to find my digi-cam's battery charger. So here are the pictures.

see the master piece :D

silly gal trying to give me brain damage..

see still waving the hammer!!

I'm thinking of looking for a weekend job to finance my Linkin Park concert. Mei Ling you better hope i save up enough to pei you for the concert. Lucky you going to Japan alone.grr~.. but enjoy wor, dun forget my postcards!!

Thoughts to be expressed

I'm saying everything I've said before. All these words i know they make no sense. I rather find bliss in ignorance. The rice bowl has been shattered, the broken pieces seems to variable. How to pick up a million shattered pieces? Will you help me? The faith i believe in is still there, but my inspiration has dried up. Need peace of mind? Here's a piece of mine!! The tone is now mono and i'm about to go..just sometimes...somtimes...

Even if the sky falls i'll hold your hand!!

2004-05-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

Firstly, thank you Alicia for helping me out with the banner. Hopefully we can complete it by wed. Had a fun day doing the banner and carrying those 3m long cardboard(ouch).

Everything totalled up to $33+. There goes my pocket money. But daddy just gave me my this week pocket money so it isn't so bad now. yesterday i spent all till i diden have a single cent in my pocket when i reached home. can't believe i donated my last few coins to the charity box.Never felt so broke.Took some really geekly pictures with Alicia's new HP(nokia 6230).

Joined the beings at Orchard later in the day. Actually, I was forced to connect. The Collective Consciences beings are getting violent due to the presence another being whom had stolen one of the stones of midnight. Why are the the ones connect to the Consciences just tools of war? Has the voice of an single being unimportant anymore or has the Collective Consciences become too powerful as a union of auras?

sorry if the top part diden make sense to you people. I was trying to relate wad happen when at Orchard today. But hey i had a fun time today. Tmr and wednesday promises to be a brighter day and less cloudlier..haha..

Ps: Alicia HEY what's with that pic of mine in your blog..WIN LEH!!!

2004-05-22T18:00:00.000+08:00

That day I tried to hold your hand. Unfortunately, the rain kept on falling and you disappeared out of sight. How much do i have give to stand besides you? I'm Waiting for the sky to turn clear. Maybe till then I'll be better.(Translated Jay Chou's song Qing Tian)

Woke up only at 1pm.On my Play Station the whole day. Life has been plain just like porridge with salted eggs! Wanted to ask Alicia go buy tools for the banner today but she was busy.

Apart from those nothing interesting. Everywhere seems to be filled with sakuras except my life. I was wondering why girls don't believe in second chances. Isn't mistakens part of life? Perhaps one bitten twice shy! Leaving for my granny's house soon for dinner =P haha.. Can't wait to watch FA cup 'live' on TV later =D

But it seems that at the end of the tale you still said, "Gooodbye."

2004-05-21T16:08:00.000+08:00

The perfect sky is torn, you're a little late. Monday i need to get ready to do my leo banner. Thanks Alicia for the help! :) gonna get the design up soon!! should the letttering be in paper or cloth?

I can't recall what i wanna blog liao. so maybe that about it. life could have been worst!!!

2004-05-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

Five shots couldn't drop me, I took it, and smiled

Tomorrow at this time what will you be doing? Will you be thinking of me like how i will be thinking of you. The broken clock has halt it's time for you and me but can we treat it as a new chapter? I'm sorry that I hurt you before. It's something I must live with everyday and all the pain I put you through.I wish that I could take it all away, be the one who kisses away your tears and catch you when you fall.

Life anin't that simple.

2004-05-19T01:43:00.000+08:00

In my next life, i wanna be a leaf floating aimlessly with wind. So many thoughts but so little answers. To inspire or expire? why straight forward answers becomes complex overnight? when can a little boy shed his thoughts before becoming a man?

Had pasta mania again with Nicholas and Nicole today *yummy* i got the craving for it recently and yes it burnt a hole in my pocket as well.

Mei Ling sms me asking me to join her for the Linkin Park concert. But no money leh! worse of all, she wants to get the $152 front stands one. i think she is enjoying single life really to the extreme. Linkin Park then later to Japan holiday for 9 days alone. My hats off to Ms Chia Mei Ling..LOL

oh, you ask us to pei you cos you can't let your current students see your wild side huh..LOL save all the money and get married la..all of us waiting for wedding dinner!! haven seen you for a long time btw, don forget presents from Japan k! haha.. ok this is dumb as i dun even think she reads my blog but heck who cares..

2004-05-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

cherry blossoms during spring. Beautiful but even the full moon will be gone given time. The scattered flowers on the green mat seems endlessly long. I wish i can witness the sight and keep it forever in my memory =)

Sorry, but i really like you( my MSN nick). The reason for this is the way one interpret it. btw it is in Japanese. Life goes on today and i spent the entired day doing my company's webpage. Going to bed soon. Tomorrow is another new day a new begaining and a new lease of life of me.

Life's a wonderful journey. Strive and not yield..

2004-05-14T21:31:00.000+08:00

Somewhere over the rainbow stars shine bright. The saying goes that wine and salt changes one destiny but sometimes don't you think destiny are pre-programed and fixed? If it's variable then why sometimes things don't turn out how seemingly it was meant to be. Facts can't be change but can maybe bent. History can't be cahnged but can repeat. The future may seem bleak but i can pretend it'll not happen. I try to twist fate, play around it but all seem to backfire and crash. the pretext of life as i said before is a melancholic tune even before the Pandora box was opened.

After ITP i met Alicia for lunch at Pasta Mania. yummy~ never had such a feast for quite awhile. I seems i'm in love with this song Always (Bon jovi) at the moment. There are so many things i wanna spurge on but low in the pocket. Money is scare. if oxygen has to be paid for, i will gladly end it all here. i wanna run away never say goodbye, wanna know the truth without wonderinf why i wanna know the answers no more lies i wanne shut the door and open up my mind.

In the end it doesn't even matter.....

2004-05-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

The moon is hidden in the deep darkness as the auras of mixed colors blend in the sky. I've never seen a mirror that tells lies. Let alone a rose that blossoms in an eye. Despite all the salt and wine, there are just so many things that I can't touch. God made wine from water. You made a man out of me.

My inspiration has run dry; the perfect sky is already torn. But I still keep my faith; walk on with you in me. Let the wind gust, the bitter snow freeze I'll still hold on. Till the day I hear the words you said to them I will still cling on. Time may heal and scars may vanish but opposing those will be opposing the forces of nature.

Pamela said something really interesting. Life is already sad enough so why bother thinking of melancholic stuffs. On paper I seem easy. But that little cell in my brain blocked all out. I wished I could but if everything seems perfect wouldn't the world be a boring place? Ok, I'm very contradicting here but heck, these are my thoughts and all I do is pen them l there. Like me or hate me. Let the criticism on me be the savory topping to complete the dish of pain.

I went to school today help out with the enrollment exercise. Alicia be thankful I pei you wor..haha.. ah well, it was a fine day I guess. Hmm, thinking of other stuffs now. *think*

There are so many question that I'm still searching for the right answer but never seem to. This quote from Mei Ling was given to me to guide me through my future endeavor; Choose to live your life like how you would answer your history essay question. it sounds like an intricate yet also simple answer I receive via post card. I get the point but still not fully get the meaning 3 years already I'm still pondering over this answer and when I ask her she will still say ' you know the answer'. Anyway, thanks for the wonderful answer that kept me thinking for so long..lol enjoy your holiday in Japan and hey, we want to attend your wedding soon. Btw, Mei Ling was our ex-form teacher for 3 years. We've been through so much laugher and tears. I wished I could do more then just type about her here. I seem to have cheered up a bit here..lol so unlike me to write long journals but recently I feel so much penning all my thoughts. Forgive me!!

Perhaps life is really just an illusion.

2004-05-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

Well there ain't no luck in these loaded dice. Letting go and move on. Is it worth waiting and is what she says true? The scuffle for the accolade, we might just get end up getting nothing.

It's nothing but some feelings. Why is the rain is pouring outside and I'm drowning in the flood. Can't you see I lost my fighting spirit without you. I can't love like the way it was meant to be. Perhaps I'm not that perfect anymore. The pictures that you left behind are just memories of a different life. Some did make us laugh and some made us cry. Why we have to say goodbye. I know when I die; you'll be on my mind I promise.

But I see him holding you close, pulls you near. When he says the words you've been meaning to hear, I really wished I was him, with those words of mine to say to you till the end of time.

After ITP, I went to check out the concourse before joining Pamela to PS since I had time to spare. Tomorrow I will be going to the concourse the whole day to help. It promises to be a greater day I hope. Prove me wrong somebody. Argh!!!~

2004-05-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

Letting go maybe the best option after all.Expiation for the sacrifice must be made.. started with my ITP already and befroe yes i said BEFORE it was at Tuas but after one day at tuas i switched to in house attachment. Don wanna go into details here. Anyway, Mr David Parkins thanks for the switch but still FUCK YOU for the fuck up sarcastic remark you know better.

today i was at the in concourse helping with enrolment exercise with Alicia and Law..haha so fun got to meet 2 new friends from SP-Golf, the booth next to us. Hi to lipeng and xiu ling =) Pam was there too and so many cool people!! i'm going to school again tmr for my ITP meeting. Thurday i'll be again. see you people on thursday. btw the debriefing sucks..wasting time. I dun care Thursday Alicia you go alone for the debriefing..LOL jk..haha.. in gd mood recently..haha oh not forgetting Nicoel thank you for the 2 wonderful t-shirt from Top-Shop. i adore like both of them and it fit just fine. The sunlight seems to shine through those dark clouds recently =)

2004-05-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

Candies are sweet but too much gives you a toothache. The exams are over but lets not rejoice til the result are out. My MCT paper was a terror. 10 marks gone *confirm plus stamp* LOL.. The feeling of happiness yet fear always seems to blend after my exams. Starting my ITP next week *dreads* TUAS argh! but hey, i get to make new friends and lets pray *says a prayer* my boss's not a BITCH..haha.sound werid rite btu my prev ITP one was...

Diden go to my friends 21 birthday party cus by the time i finish dinner with my family, which my dad insisted i go, it was 9pm. Call Thian sian adn he said they were leaving at 11pm so, wad the heck, by the tiem i get there, it'll be like 10pm so hai, i diden go *sigh* currently waiting for liverpool's match to start. Life is filled with rubbish and the rubbish can be gold depending on how u view it =)

2004-05-05T15:43:00.000+08:00

Perplexing in life is scary even before the Pandora box was opened. I struggle to hold onto the edge of the cliff but my grip is getting weaker, palms are getting sweatier and it's starting to wobble. The meteor has imprinted the facts I can't behold. The stars I can't see now still are evoking back. Maybe I should just get my act together and concentrate but the value is NULL. Just like the stack pointer unable to point to the right memory location because the declaration was never there. I just can't get the right data in to the right allocations.

All I want to do now is to unwind myself, feel the seaside breeze and seeing palm trees swaying in the salty seawater. That's life for me. I love to relish every moment and not missing a single detail. The feeling of the sand between your toes when you walk by the coast in the early dawn is consequently remarkable.

Even after the exams the torture of dragging myself to Tuas every morning and back home can already exterminate me. What have the saintly boy in the angel's eyes done to deserve such torment? It's so nothing like me to type long Blogs but the time has come to let loose my agony and let my sorrows fill the heavens just like when she opened the Pandora box, which was meant to be closed. You said it best when you say nothing at all. Btw, I witness the lunar eclipse early this morning at 3am. Thank you Pamela for the small bit of info =) it's time for sun to give way to the moon. I shall submit to my books for Friday's paper =(

2004-05-01T00:53:00.000+08:00

When can the Milky Way appear before me? The gray patch of tears just wouldn’t go away no matter how I pray. You are there day after day waiting for me to notice you but I just can’t make out. Maybe someplace some where I’ll be able to notice you just like you have done so all your life =)

Life is a road one has to keep going. But to do it without setbacks you’ll have to be immortal. Falls and tumbles are just parcels and packages of life. The star has died tonight high above. That star has transform into meteor (shooting star). A split second late it’ll be gone. So I capture this moment to make a wish to always stand by you through sadness or happiness, hold you whenever you fall, kiss away every single tear you may drop.

Ok too abstract stuff above. LOL yesterday I caught the movie 50 first dates with Pam. It was a really funny show. After the show, we scrolled along the Singapore River and slogged outside Clarke Quay MRT. It was drizzling but hey we dried the wet chairs with our butts. LOL only one star was visible that night but better then nothing right? LOL Reached home at around 12am and got a bit of nagging but it’s fine I ENJOYED my day =)

2004-04-27T20:58:00.000+08:00

maths paper was okie. Maybe carelessness and lack of passion was the main reason. Should i be able to get 70% and it'll be bulls eye =) my next paper will be on Thursday. Wish me luck cos it's Analog Systems. I hate to memories these ****ing formulas..So many!!! It shall be full steam ahead tmr. That's what I say everytime but I always seem to run out of steam..LOL okok..tmr after my haircut I shall be a re-born boy, seek forgiveness and continue my journey. LOL that sounded so corny!!

tonight there are not stars in the light polluated city of mine. wish i could even see a couple of them and make a wish before i sleep. haven't seen alot of stars lately in the sky =) shh...not tell you people what i'm gonna wish for =p all the best to bunny Alicia and princess Pamela for your paper tmr LOL... =)

2004-04-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

Speaking of studying in SP Alsaka's library..LOL met Dinesh in school to study but it seems that we were freezing and stoning there instead of cramming. LOL so......we migrated out to let our frozen body thaw in the evening sun. And for tea break, we had chicken chops. Okie, this fucking lame. we had chicken chops with chopsticks..what the fuck, cos there wasn't any more fork and knife. Since it was take away, that uncle squeezed the whole darning chicken into at tiny box half the size of a A4 paper *stunned*

Okie Dinesh was in a very cracky mood today..joking and crapping the whole day about his own drama script and a new line to propose to a gal. " hi, do you want my sperm!!" *stunned* well, i diden do much studying also but heck tmr is the first paper. Better study soon =) btw, my modem is offically DEAD borrowing my mom's one to use for now ONLY *sigh* oh ya, good luck Pam for your paper today and to everyone else cramming for their Sem exams!!!

2004-04-25T16:45:00.000+08:00

A bored day at home. On my way to my grandma's place to collect a letter, I bought $10 worth of food..I'm so full now. LOL I'm full yet not satisfied, happy but melancholy, thrilled but scared. my day just got fuck by a chicken wing. nvm... gonna go study soon =)

So Happy Together

Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

Ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba
Ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together
Happy together
So happy together
So happy together (ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba)

2004-04-24T10:13:00.000+08:00

Fixing A Broken Heart

There was nothing to say the day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain, ooh
Then like an answered prayer
I turned you around and found you there

* You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have broken apart
Fixing a broken heart

Now I don't understand what I'm going through
There must be a plan that led me to you
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are neat, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You must the londliness easy to bear

* repeat

Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past
'cause here we are at lead

* repeat

Gonna start my revision soon. Still my all time favorite song.. life crust is bitter and if you thought the inside is sweet, you are hell wrong, it's a burning larva inside. Sufferings never escapes life.

2004-04-23T20:46:00.000+08:00

{ FIRST }

First Valentine date: 14 Feb 2004
First break-up: not applicable
First self purchased album: M2M-shades of purple
First funeral: uncle
First pets: turtle *stink*
First piercing/tattoo: never had one
First enemy: can't bother to remember tat fucker
First play/musical/performance: K-2, mother's day

{ CURRENT }

Current best friend: too many...
Current martial status: single
Current song playing: Jann Arden - Insensitive
Current thoughts: i'm gonna start studying tmr!! LOL
Current emotions: depress
Current status online: online..dah
Current wonder: Should i ask
Current need: someone to hug

{ LAST }

Last cigarette: FUCK that
Last kiss: haven't tired before
Last good cry: Can't recall
Last movie seen: The Prince & I
Last beverage drank: Guava Juice
Last food consumed : Plain rice
Last crush: dun wanna say
Last phone call: can't recall
Last cd played: Norah Jones
Last item bought: Lunch
Last annoyance: No ditigal camera for 3 days
Last disappointment: got crushed
Last ice cream eaten: can i dun answer this fucking question..grrr
Last time wanting to die: NOW
Last website visited: Alicia Blog

2004-04-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

Studied today with Pamela at Raffles BK. Fun is the word to describe the day =) thank you!! I'll be having RWP presentation tmr. Gonna look crappy.. LOL btw alicia good luck for your RWP presentation too =) eat more carrot then wouldn't be so nervous..LOL

Questions to ponder about:

Would you choose a girl more who loves you more then u love her or a girl whom u love her more then she loves you?

Money or Love?

2004-04-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

Seriously i'm on the verge of breaking.dun like to blogger long these days.. no one seem to understand my thoughts feeling and inspirations. not even the closest of the gentle doves.

2004-04-20T08:27:00.000+08:00

i'm late for morning lessons at 8.30am. But i'm not feeling all that well, have a bad sore throat and feeling a little Hot. Went for a movie "Prince & Me" yesterday with Pam. Funny movie and as usual, fairytale..LOL

today is the day to study without any step backs.. *full steam ahead* - gosh, it's only morning and i'm crazy already...

2004-04-19T00:35:00.000+08:00

Got to know this crazy gal Pamela from woodbridge. we were discharge yesterday..LOL

well, nuthing much to write la.. i spent my day at home slacking and i concluded that life has endless suffering..may starry nites come more frequent so i can wish more often..gosh~ wad am i typing.. I'm offically MAD

2004-04-17T02:10:00.000+08:00

thank you Alicia for you Adver. i will do one for u really soon. btw i fix my com prob liao=) nothing much to say today.jus plain bored. maybe i explain it tmr.

i've gone mad..but i anin't going back

i'm crazy, must be the rabbit meat i ate..haha *0ops~*

2004-04-13T18:10:00.000+08:00

you were on my mind when i enter cheers i was recalling that time i purposely walk into cheers when i saw u buying choc inside jus to say hi to you and see you smile~ =p but today, i was jus thinking of you and i walk into the shop, got my stuffs and when i opened the door, i saw u. u look stun at first but later smiled. =) i mean, i never though i would meet u today. well, known you since childhood. i had a crush on you for 4 years but kinda got over it after wad had happen =) anyway, since she was on her way home and it's around the corner, i walked her home today. first time!!

Enough of those, my sprain ankle hurts agian today during the soccer match with my classmates. Then Denise kick my ankle. lolz~ blue bluck cum sprain^2 liao..then i cut my left knee while retriving the ball. how luck can i get..haha all on my left leg. but to think of it, i met her =) na, i'm not all over her la, jus so happy to met her cus seldom get to see her even thou we live a few blocks away only. she's liek my little sister =) gonna go try to access gunbound again then go shower and study liao.~

2004-04-11T01:45:00.000+08:00

.ZzzZzz. wad a lame day!!! Yeah~! the cold war at home is finally over!! me and mummy back to joking terms liao =p okok back to today..wad else morning till afternoon is internet, gunbound, email, MSN..etc no study or wad so ever.. OMG i can't go on like this.. I want to go Uni !! so0o.. i better pull up my socks. gosh it's loose liao <--being lame haha!!

tmr is gonna be study day so i hope i dun SCREW it up again!! gee, i'm so crazy tonite.. as usual, INSANE!! haha.. ok la nothing else to say so i shall not be draggy here!! Oya, Alicia do cheer up =)

2004-04-07T19:28:00.000+08:00

Eh, got home after my "Studying Session" in school. suppose to go study in the library with Alicia and her friends till 3 plus one but instead i was studying half heartedly and with them chatting away.

Seeing them so happy chatting, i also joined in.. =p second time meeting them, a BIG hi to Ai Ling and Lawrence =) in fact i was suprise Ai Ling know my classmate Dinesh and my other friends.. wad a small world huh!! After slogging with my books till 3, we went to Mac for a snack and chit chat... Anyway, i gonna go soon to do my hw liao maybe later after Gunbound..HAHA~

2004-04-06T02:06:00.000+08:00

tick tick tick...wah...2am liao i wanna go sleep liao tmr got morning lesson *sighs* yuppie, new layout i LOVE it...!! anyway, thnaks Alicia for her support thru out dun worry i will do one for you as promise la.. *blek haha..going to be i nstudy mode tmr..need lots of rest now..good nite everyone!!

2004-04-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

lalala...a hungry man is a angry man..sianz! today and yesterday was the worst day man.. well yesterday was not tat bad la, cus i met Sharon for Study session. half way thru our study session at coffe bean scotts, got fashion show next door..haha..a few days ago, i went for my classmate's drama play ' 3 shorts many of shoes'. i msut say i'm very impress with the play even thou it was NOT free. Paid $5. But the money is well spent. ya, this actress particularly caught my eye. I can;t recall ehr name liao, i'll go check it out and post it again =) btw, this is a quote from me (it's not true so dun ask me ler) I'm in love with a crazy woman who had 14 affairs and 2 abortions